I felt guilty to Daniyel lately becos I failed to breastfeed him since day 2. He was crying all the day and I keep wondering why.
After seeing the doctor only I knew I did not produce enough milk.seeing baby hungry n exhausted from crying added the guilty n pain.
Becos I am mom,I decided to feed him with formula milk.if it would make him happy then why not??
Few days later,i keep on trying to pump n pump my breast.people around me added the presure and hurting my feeling.thats not only annoyed,but its hurt and mounting the guilt feeling again.
My nipple sore,crack n has blister.i cried whenever I feed Daniyel.on early day of confinement, I couldnt sit properly and its truly hurt becos of my episotomy.thats another down factor.
Up until today,people keep on asking me why-not-breastfeeding-annoying question.trust me as a mother I always wanted the best for my baby.and as human I also flawed and has a body to heal too.
So everytime u passed by a mother,ecspecially the new mom,never argue about this.its not only annoying,it is totally hurting added the frustation.