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my last update was September? its like 3 months ago??? thats looonggg.. so hi here i am with my 18 weeks of pregnancy.typing with my bloating ad gassy stomach. this second round is quite challenging for me. 1st i reallly have bad nausea and gassy stomach.i feel like wanna sleep whole morning and do nothing. but do nothing added the pain.so i think one of the most crucial part of handling the morning sickness is stand up straight and dont think about it. get ready,all dolled up and go and have your day. do your chores,work or activities.it will definitely doesnt shove it away, but it divert your thinking and focusing on something else. Yes you might felt down on your knee once a while,im not judging. whenever i heard pregnant friends really have to be in bed all day due to morning sickness, and on Medical leave,i feel like..oh thats cool. dont have to work.sorryyyy i really don't know sitting on the bed whole time doesn't eased the pain.Now i know. so the next hardes...

Sitting n leisuring at home is such a bless from almighty God.i could lazing around, check my inbox,clean up the mess,making breakfest for darling f and well sleep for a while without worrying my boss will ring me in the middle. But Being in this waiting game (as the blog always said) is sometimes a bit tough or errr verryyy toughhh.ecspecially when I think I should hv follow my to do list but then again looking at my growing belly,make me cut almost 80% of what have been listed.up until now,i read n recall thousand of tips for easy and (not so) quick delivery.i felt desperate now -___- Update on my week 39 and 2 days: - Current weight is 72kilo *cries - Baby estimation is 3.2 kilos - I lost appetite abit - could feel the baby's is turning down. Rase geli kat bawah - exhausted And I couldnt sleep properly!!! almost cried in the middle of the night becos of my lower back was soooo throbbing pain.i need my rest but nothing I could do except putting more pillows around me.th...

Hubby is busy being master chef in the kitchen.so why not wifey doing some blog update with puffier feet than ever. Alhamdulillah,i started this pregnancy journey with only slight difficuilty.as I told ya, I knew I am expecting during my week 5,just a week before ramadhan.its such a bless.but being a newbie and fasting werent a great combo. I felt tired almost all the time.only perfomed terawikh 2-3 days.other than that, I lay flat on bed after berbuke. I always prayed and asked Allah to grant me all the strenght in the world to go through the whole 8 month left,with some crying in between. Alhmdulillah, I complete my first phase of trimester and feel a lot better. And now I am,battling in my week 38 with heavier me and every moves are so wrong and painful.but I feel happier than nobody bussiness when little bulb are kicking and summersaulting.hehee.i can't wait to see u babyyyyy..i just have to bear around 2 weeks =D Mum and mil keep on advicing me on what to do.i feel bless...

What would u do if have less than 20 days before the D-Day? asking me, may i have my sound sleep and better weather please? the weather couldnt be any forgiven nowadays. you be in the wrong please with the material of clothes, u'll screw up everything. on the different note, baby is now ready for delivery. the things that be lil bit nervous is how the baby will come out becos currently baby's weight approximately 3.1 kilos!!of cos i pray for normal smooth delivery.tho sometime the tearing and sewing part do scare me. last time i cry becos i can't imagine myself go through the maximum pain. Just sharing,have u heard of this?  however this is not true. read more about it  here oh btw, how bout my weight? i am currently 69 kg..blurghhhh..coming out faster baby, mummy wanna start dieting sooooon. 

Pregnancy has brought me almost to the end. i will reach week 36 tomorrow. this journey, masyaallah,are so meaningful and remarkable for me (and F).i am speechless here, my heart are so full. Baby so far, is doing greaaaatt. Getting very active by day and night. Mummy and daddy always wondering which look you will copied.hehe. on the other side,mummy, always going ups and downs.one second i felt wayyyy better, another moment i felt very down and worried.my feet is puffy than ever, that i barely walk after few minutes in mall. gained 17 kilos guys *cries* now i know the fat-feeling.and now i know why people going over the board with slimming products.now i know T_T God forgive me. above all, i feel loved by everybody. people offer me seat, i could have what i craving, i could take bigger space as i like, i could go overboard with my feeling (and people will say, its okay.you are preggy) and i could have my breakies in bed.haha.i am so mengada. i rotate less attire nowad...

sangat pening minggu ini kerana: 1) close account 2013 2) rasa perut makin besar dan tak larat berjalan/berdiri lama 3) takde baju nak pakai 4) rasa makin lapa setiap masa banyakkan omelan comel ibu mengandung ni.tehehe feel like time are ticking quicker than ever. can't u believe it 9 weeks to go?whoaaa baby..you make me so strong. we both are strong =D Loves you baby. if last year, my entries were flooded by my wedding preps..this time its all about the tiny little creature that create a whole different things. it is so small yet it will teach you looooooooooottttttttsaaaa things - being strong, patience, hardwork and above all happiness that it bring, insyaallah. Daddy and mummy maybe not a perfect role to be ur parent but we are striving our best each day on what we should do to give our greatest. we maybe tad slow in preparing for you little boss. but look what we have for the time being: 1) Stroller (Auntie Nisa gave) 2) Cot (Grandma bought for you...

yay!!!only one week before we can fly baby. your conservatives mother is too much, emm like usually. she checks on everything (almost). including call MAS few times to confirm about pregnancy lady on board. must be really annoyed with me. never mind. i have errands to settle before taking my leave.looking at my tables, Omaigod.i am in trouble.but tired too thats why i am here posting a what-not. mummy also has to do the listing before leaving. becos mummy is so paranoid with the pregnancy and travelling. i keep on bugging F with some of the silly Qs.he tought he was so funny by mimicking me. so whats with the title up there?i am in low hb again. mummy was crying again after seeing the doctor. itu la yang mak rase wits end sangat. mak makan ubat ok.makan sayur.makan bayam.makan buah.tapi kenapa still low in hemoglobin??why why why. i felt like my effort is soooo unworthy. and............ my latest weight recorded is 59 point something (i dun want to know the...

baby i must be half-sane now.i think i am obsessed with my baby.haha.why? because i keep thinking what to eat, what to buy for the little bulb.i even imagine hows my baby look like. -__-" you are so lucky baby!! this week is week 25 baby.you are making summersault alot.like everytime.sampai mummy sakit perut. mummy current craving is durian and cheesy food. you love it alot don't you?izzit taste good little darling? this week you are seeing (hearing) grandma again!!!!i think you are happier becos granny pamper you alot. keep asking about you even over the phone.see granny loves you sooo much. i will send you to kampung every school holidays, no worries. do you know it is 15 weeks more to see you??ahh mummy can't wait.mummy wanna smooches you.sleep with you.taking care of you little bos. but make sure you are doing well and enjoying your brief time inside me. we will shop for you this week!!!!!!can't wait. happy weekend guys!!!

WOw!!!what a journey,baby.you and me ( and daddy lo l ). we have been along for 6 months.6 precious months honey!!!!!!!!!!!!! you make me smiles, cry, exhausted, joyous.above all i thanked God for the strength he provides me, for being patient enough to going all the sickness and hardship. walaupun mummy menangis kene cucuk, mummy tetap bertabah dan pergi membeli belah. it is u sayang who make me stronger everyday.  baby is doing well so far. weight at 700gram, 30cm height. though people keep saying i look like 3 or 4 months, you make me proud baby.as long as you healthy, strong and happy, mummy willing to do anything, for you. oh btw, little bos, we will be flying so far next month. mummy has a little request here. just a tiny little thing sayang.promise. please be good all the time yaaa. as in return u always has my backed whenever daddy against you.but promise dun tell anyone. this trip is really vital to mummy.ssssshhhh dun tell anyone.mummy needs to shop o...

semalam seharian cramp perut tapi gagahkan diri jugak kerja.sakit sampai ke malam.sampai menangis2 drama queen ini lol. tapi memang bile cramp akan rs sgt menderita.owh good tapi tekadkan hati demi anak tercinta.wah gitu. so semalam berazam la dewi ini utk makan ostemetrik Shaklee agar tidak cramp lagi. azam2 pun makan tak ikot arahan botol. orang kata makan 4 pegi makan 2 je.tak klakar ok kene makan ubat besar2 4 bijik sebelum tido.rase nak terkencing2 sebab minum ar byk sgt. mcm mana la orang yang amik satu set supplement shaklee tu hari2 tanpa miss?tell me tell me. pagi ni rase ade sedikit kurang.lazim nye selepas berehat tinggikan kaki memang akan kurang.masih tatau oste membantu atau tidak.ataupun kerana doa seorang ibu =D penambahan minyak ikan @ Omega Guard Shaklee akan diusahakan secepat mungkin. sebab bab membeli memang laju.hehe. setakat  (23 week) nie vitamin/supplement yang saya amalkan: 1) Iron - untuk tambah darah. yang nie penting sebab dik...

Alhamdulillah.mummy enjoy this last day of the working week with BIG FAT relieved. i am over joy as the blood reading is now 11.6.wehuuuuuu * dancing around the room * mummy singing all the way long to the car after seeing the doctor. she said im doing good but have to maintain it.yes yes i will.insyaallah.Thank you subhanallah.nothing beats this feeling. in the not so happy mode : my weight count now is 54.2. i am not that fat -___-" it just my growing belly and everything inside to protect the baby contribute to the number.please.trust.me.dun hurt me by saying im fat whenever i pass by.it hurt (becos deep inside i knew i am hahaha)  but old man said, pregnant lady is beautiful (regardless of dramas inside the changing room). tomorrow mummy will have to attend the breastfeeding class. what??class??after so many yrs back.its not that funny.furthermore at 8 am.i burnt my sleeppppp. ok have to finish half of the laundry tonite!! (please forget your dream to buy ne...

Wehuuu alhamdulillah.today I hv seen baby inside.yes we had scan in session earlier today. Doctor said everything is normal.last time we scanned baby was too small,but today baby's weight is 300gram (so where is 3kilos coming from??) Baby is very active.bergerak tak henti2.mummy was very touch seeing u.remind me of my sin of skipping the supplements.gosh.mummy promise to take them in consistency method.gv me time hehe. Mummy cried after seeing the doctor.i dunno why.being extra emotional today. Semoga Allah melindungimu sayang.

i am half insane & emotionally breakdown when talking to F about what the doctor's said/adviced during my monthly check up.being a newbie in gestation, added the pressure. my blood cell reading is below 11. previously i was steadily pulling it proud in front of midwife that im doing good (with reading 11.3 and above). latest reading is 10.5 which is considered lower. i am wobbled by the news.my bladder can't digest it. my current weight also under watch. they were steadily increasing 400g for the past few months, but hey they act tremendously now!!!gaining 3.4 kilos (when the fact is i dun know which part is growing) * cries* but i cannot cry.can't giving up. but will log a lots of complains to F hahaha baby have to trust Mummy ok? mummy will do whatever it takes to ensure u r healthy, brilliant and pretty inside out. but when u r growing up make sure u listen to mummy ok. Mummy loves you sooo much 

or sehat datang dulu?kemudian baru boleh jadi bijak? tapi ade kawan saya yang kene tumor masa UPSR.lepas operation ambil exam siap dapat masuk MRSM lg. lepas tu siap blaja kat Oxford lagi.kelas kau mariah.sekarang bekerja di syarikat yang paling famous and besar u all.siap amik professional exam lagi. bukan la tumor isu nya T_T isu nya bagaimana mahu mendidik anak menjadi sehat dan bijak.mcm senang tapi sebenarnya bermula dari sebelum lahir lagi. saya tertarik dengan artikel bagaimana kaum Yahudi membentuk anak mereka dr dalam perut lagi.salah satu darinya adalah menyelesaikan masalah matematik . wah!! perlu ke beli buku add math?menangis aku siang malam buat soklan add math.haha.dulu2 pun dah panic attack nak exam SPM. atau adakah cukup dengan masalah kira-kira yang aku buat di ofis setiap hari (dan jugak merancang kewangan sendiri yang tak pernah diikuti?) atau adakah ckup dengan mengawal diri dengan tidak menjadi boros dan mengurus kewangan dengan bijak ...

F has been super duper busy for the past few days. he got thesis, he got mounting workload, and thats killing me. dear wifey super miss him la. but becos it were weekdays, i could consoled my heart. being tired and pregnant, put me on sound sleep tho F were doing OT. last night i was half awake when F came back. he was trying to kiss me good nite and tuck me in duvet.i realized that with heavy eyes.  out of sudden, our Baby moves!!!!!!i could felt it moving upward.I guessed Baby was missing daddddyyyy alooooooottttttt.Baby was saying "Daddy im missing you.could you play with me becos mummy is so tired and sleepy and she was so drastic to make me sleep at 10." Mummy read those book baby. baby must sleep atleast 16 hours a day.now im thinking, will our kid complain everything to Daddy about mummy? *sigh*

first case : over the dinner  wah tajuk gituuuu..sebenarnya mak and suami mak memang ade kontroversi (apesal rasa mcm susah nak eja). setiap malam tatau nak makan ape.bini yng mengandung ni kalau boleh tak nak makan dekat luar jer..tapi kalau makan kat rumah memang limited..telur..ayam..daging.. kalau nak variety gitu kene la singgah kedai which is mak malassss sgt2..satu: ikan/bahan mentah tak segar.dua: nanti mak pegi belek2 bahagian lain jugak.kan dah buang masa disitu? lagi satu kalau jalan banyak2 mak akan penat.lepas tu siapa nak masak?suami memang la boleh memasak tetapi kadang2 mak rasa mak terel gitu, naluri keibuan.hahaha.masak sendiri puji sendiri.lol.  second case : attire entirely not working i can't fit my formal/working pants anymore, but hey my stomach is not big (yet!)..i cried (in my heart) wrestle with my wardrobe every single morning while fahmi was sleeping. i waking up super early becos it was disturbing to think what to wear everyday. ...

at some point of my life, im a confuse..or just curios .do my understanding and talking been digest and received to the particular person.sometimes its better to do the talking to the moon, it does not understand/hear/reply but u can just feel way better, becos obviously and it is a fact that it can't reply you. becos of the old lame song said so, we just followed!!! my point is i have to make decision before giving birth. collecting information helped right in order to deliver the satisfying result? i always think my steps are the right ones,but not this time or just dun blame me, can't u? my bestie went to the Hospital Besar Sungai Buloh to deliver her first son, which is to my joy as she said can be paid and enjoy my short vacation in (remember my FPP entry??).to my delightful, i called HSB to confirm about this.but guyssssss (*cries*) no one knew bout this.NON.ZERO.let say this is my fault becos well known FPP are only in Selayang and Putrajaya. after did shor...

i had a very good nagging from my mother over vitamin issue. since i know i am pregnant, the private doctor subscribed me Folic acid, Obimin and b complex. the problem with me is i can't consume supplement enriched with vitamin B. i will feel bloating all day and finally have to throw out. i find out this happened few months back (before pregnant) when i added b complex to my routine. once i stopped everything went back to normal. thru my reading, for the first trimester, the needs is on folic acid. then only started with obimin and some other supplement. but mum and F keep on reminding me to pop those unfriendly pills too. to their pleasure, i did.and felt bloated all day. but according to BFF group at so called whatsapp, mostly are a mother now,they are group who could be exempt from those vitamins. Aby for example, couldn't gulp any vitamins. she throw up within a second. doctor suggested she could forget all those supplements. the things that bladder could took...

Nampak nye ramadhan ini tidak membawa kite kepada acara penulisan secara mingguan yer.sama seperti tahun2 lepas. ramadhan yang sunyi haha. sebab penulis berasa tidak banyak yang perlu dikatakan.penulis sendiri pun tidak berada didalam keadaan yang stabil.hari2 perlu ke toilet untuk muntah ataupun perlu berehat setiap selang sejam dua.penulis tidak masak, hanya berehat, tidak boleh banyak berjalan.tidak juga menyediakan juadah hari raya.rase seperti kurang upaya.baju raya?belum siap jugak.tak tahu la ape nak jadi raya nieeee. tapi mengidam untuk membeli pump shoes nanti. makanan kegemaran juga seperti tiada.yang disukai hanyala manisan dan buah-buahan. penulis seperti tiada perasaan untuk makan. makan sebab terpaksa.  entry acara berbuka puasa menyusul. selamat berpuasa!!! lagi seminggu 

Hari jumat yang hujan2 mcm nie kalau makan nasi beriani memang sedap.haha..tapi sebab puasa, hadap jela keje smpai 4.30. 2, 3 hari nie saya terpkir (sebab aku over) nanti nak bersalin kat mane.ha cepu emas tu.sebab company hubby and me memang al kedekut, jadi takde la coverage utk maternity. jadi untuk bersalin dekat hospital paling mahal harus dilupakan. dulu-dulu sebelum pregnant, saya selalyu tertanya2 kenapa dorang nie tak pegi je kerajaan.bukan ke free.alkisahnya, banyak cerita2 scary mary, mak takut ok. tapi tak semua nya buruk. bergantung kepada keadaan dan rezeki masing2. like my mum semua pun bersalin kat kerajaan,elok aje. yelah dolu2 mane orang tau sangat hospital private. walaupun baru 8 minggu, tetapi agak teruja bila mencari info pasal hospital bersalin ni.mcm2 kisah rupanye, they were various. jangan risau (told myself) kisah kita semua berbeza.dan insyallah semua akan selamat. amin. rasa nak bersalin kat Pusrawi, sebab saya penah dengar sini ok.tapi...