be herself.self love.and alot of it.

p/s: ini hanyalah nukilan peribadi.tiada kaitan hidup dan mati. ok la.sekarang soalan favorite yang orang2 akan tujukan dekat saya (or F) adalah.... dah ade ke belum .yeahh the basic query once u got married.saya tak salah kan orang tapi tak boleh ke kite tak tanya orang dah conceived ke belum?mcm ade sikit anoying disitu bile orang tanya pasal hal ehwal katil kita. nak nak orang tu bukan kenal kita sangat pun. kadang-kadang setengah orang tu bukan tanya pregnant je, pasal lain2 pun nak tahu jugak. memanglah konon2 nampak mcm caring tapi extra menyampah pun hado.kenapa masa kitaorang nak kahwin dulu tak nak tanya ade ckup duit ke.kalau tak ckup nak tolong tambah. tu baru caring yang sebenar. ok la sy sebenar nya bercerita pasal family planning.yela nama pun dah kwen maka haruslah ade perancangan untuk semua benda.first is rumah.since F dah ade rumah kita just focus mcm mane nak decor and simpan duit untuk renovate.alhamdulilah dapur and depan dah siap2 renovate.for the time...

do u  still remember my  Iban friend Allita?i think i want to smack her down becos she terminated her fb so  i can't find any wedding picture of her.sob. so i force her to email to me the pictures.but she only manages to email me a picture, which is i hate her the most.so kedekut.email is so free that u could sent at least 10 to me. but nevermind..i have forgive her strange behaviour becos she is 2 months preggieeeee..woot wootttt.. to both of u guys, hope ur baby will not be as kedekut as the mummy hahaha..joking.enjoy lifeeee,take care of each other and jangan lupa kemas rumah sama2 hehe.

1 week and 5 days whoa whoa whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...reallllyyyy??? what are suppose to be my feeling? i hardly answered myself.  obviously i am happy..will be married to the man of my life after 4 yrs of courtship. Joyous as i will face this unknown future with F ,insyaallah.he will be my imam, my partner in crime, my friend, my advicer, my lover,my all. deeply i am sad..i will be leaving my family and devote to my husband.will be missing my home and bed in Ipoh so much. i am nervous too...plus,who are not? alot of tedious things are staring at me now.i have to pack 3 bags.one for Ipoh reception.second for honeymoon.third for F side reception.dulang still not finish with the decorations, house in messssss, cloth to iron,tdung for nikah... after all, i believe these are the mixed feeling of al the b2b.i will face this and look back and embrace myself of doing it. semoga semua nya berjalan lancar.amin.

it has been 4 days since Lita left (to live with her bf). im doing fine.but im missing somebody to gossip with, to complain things.its hard to not talking when u feel like.i already settle with the cleaning part (becos i am cheating by calling part time cleaner service hehe) so watching The Voice is the second best things to do at night.i lurveeeeeeeeee Adammmmmm.muah. but Xtina cleavage is really irritating at some point. can't she keep it? lately, i have alotsa serious conversation with everyone - F, families. we have lotsa discussion even over small things like "can or cannot we stapler the goodie bags" conversation. i am the one who doesnt pay much attention to details (except for my dress). i tend to ignore some little things. doesnt meant little thing unimportant but it is too tiring for me to even take extra care for them.can somebody taking charge of it? yes it my marriage. its my marriage but their wedding. do as a group.think beautifully and keep se...

i want to share with all of u on how i met F. there was no plan no drama initially.way back to Uni year, during semester break, i always chilled out my high school bestie, Erna.and just simple as that she introduced me to F and we hook up forever.hehe. yeah.thru mutual friends.our bestie.She studied architecture, with my F .3 of them become close friends (another one was a guy, who is Erna's husband now) F first sms was ever forgotten.i was in moody and abit breakdown when my then bf dumped me over another girl and claimed he wasn't pleaded guilty.nevermind.i am not Adele.I won't find someone like you ;p his sms,obviously i did not manage to keep, but i still remember it.and the sudden react i did, which is i never do if i dun know the number/s,i replied him. i was working in Ipoh back then, and he was in Kl. so we have this long distance relationship which make me more dramatic than ever. i feel all the insecurity would brought.things get worse when bot...

lately, i imagine myself of being a wife and mum. at certain period, worry clouding me.can i be a better half to my future husband and good example to my future kids?and at the same time balance with my so called career? if let say one day, in the name of family and love, i have to sacrifice my job,would  i do so?staying at home. taking care of the little children with messy home?and call my F every 15 minute to check on him? -________-" checking myself, i promise to add alot of marriage stuff into myself- books, articles, talks etc .i have started it today!yippie.and i found myself quite calm and spare. by now, i feel like its ok if you dun have the most lavish wedding dress or commendable table centrepiece.as long as you have the most beautiful marriage after by adding the virtue in you. insyaallah.