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I was attending my husband-get-together with his old friends last weekend. It was a simple barbeque night with drinks and kids running around, food and water spill all over. Shit happened. When the host shouting to their daughter and calling all the kids who had entered a bedroom. I was dazed because I never did that no matter how infuriated I was.  Must hold back. This is a gathering and everybody is here. Hallo, you are the one who invited us, remember? Why you start that awkward moment and maybe a moment of starting another brawl with your best friend a.k .a the other kid's parent? I object your act. And yes I am judging you now. Although it wasn't my children involved, I have this motherly feeling towards the kids. You shouted at them in the middle of the event, you are embarrassed them, scared them and you did not, at all respect them. I was once read, treat your children the same as you treat the adult. Oh my God, did you shout at the adult whos make ...

yesterday was quite chaotic domestically. first, Isa just slept, about 10 minutes when I picked him up from the playschool. It was 12.30 pm. he was a bit cranky when we arrived home, so I assumed he wants to sleep. so I put him to sleep until 40 minutes later he changed his mind.get up and ready to play. he was just tossing and drinking his milk in 40 minutes. His big brother, Ali was asleep. an hour later his brother woke up. around 2.30 pm. Isa started being cranky again. "Please be still and calm," I told myself. at least wait for another hour to make sure Isa IS REALLY SLEEPYYYY. but his crankiness is making me half insane. so at 3pm, where his whining was mounting and nothing could comfort him, I try to put him to lalaland again. Again, after 10 minutes he gets up and refused to sleep. OH MY GOD. I was crying inside. YOU want to SLEEP or NOT YOUNG MAN??? I lost all my energy to my 1.5 years baby. How am I going to deal with this little human mummies?? PATIENCE is of...

Im not in the mood to work today..just not in the right mood as something happened to my son.and this momma getting sooo sooo unsatisfied and sad and angry and many more emotional issues. today is friday, where usually offer and discounts online keeps on popping up.but im not just into buying today.but i hope it is only today, as my list is veryyy long ;p So what happened to my little man?? he got bruises on his face, at the left cheek..and also like 4 to 5 scratches.also at the same cheek.OHHMMYYY thats breaking my heart.i cried when i first noticed them.and i have like thousands of question about it.Did he cry?did he got bullied? or did him fall? does it pain?why does the person so ruthless to my son? and i came to the (maybe) true story..this one 5 yr old girl was in defends of her baby sister when Daniyel try to pull her hair/try to do something. in my disbelief, D never do something like that as far as i know. I did not say my son is an angel boy but he has never ...