be herself.self love.and alot of it.

In the mid of everyday chaos and routine, I try to do something else to distract my mind for a while. It can be reading, sewing or baking. I am still learning how to do patchwork. In baking, it needs extra miles for techniques and nothing but patience. Shopping can be too mind distracted if I can't afford 😂😂 So yesterday I was cleaning my fridge and my eyes glued to the shinning orange color inside. sadly all of them are sour. so when life gives you bad thing.. let's turn into good thing!! 1. cut into thinnest slice your knife could do 2. put all of them in the glass bottle 3. pour in honey (or brown sugar) and pinch of salt 4. keep in chill for hours remember to drench your lips with all the juice afterward! meanwhile.. I forgot to blog about my birthday last Sunday. I turn 34 years old this year. Such a blessing to live for 34 years. that's long. Thank you, Allah, for making me alive for 34 years old and counting. My happiness and a...

yesterday was quite chaotic domestically. first, Isa just slept, about 10 minutes when I picked him up from the playschool. It was 12.30 pm. he was a bit cranky when we arrived home, so I assumed he wants to sleep. so I put him to sleep until 40 minutes later he changed his mind.get up and ready to play. he was just tossing and drinking his milk in 40 minutes. His big brother, Ali was asleep. an hour later his brother woke up. around 2.30 pm. Isa started being cranky again. "Please be still and calm," I told myself. at least wait for another hour to make sure Isa IS REALLY SLEEPYYYY. but his crankiness is making me half insane. so at 3pm, where his whining was mounting and nothing could comfort him, I try to put him to lalaland again. Again, after 10 minutes he gets up and refused to sleep. OH MY GOD. I was crying inside. YOU want to SLEEP or NOT YOUNG MAN??? I lost all my energy to my 1.5 years baby. How am I going to deal with this little human mummies?? PATIENCE is of...

Hi readers and viewers(if this blog still has any..it feels so good to be back here after 6 months went on hiatus. thatssss longgggg. even it is already 15 days past since new year, still, I am here to make commotion of it. let's take a look at what 2018 brought me to: I was relocated to a new department. Wow. that was a very huge task for me that I still can't believe up until now  Attending my children first Sports Day!!!so excited don't know what to wear. But decided to wear All blue in support of Ali's team After many years contemplating to go to the Island (since Ali was a baby), Hubby and I decided to make this wish came true. So we went to Redang. Isa was nearly one year old and he kinda dislikes water, I think. for the first time ever, I started my small cake business I think a pet could be a good memory for kids, so I bought fish.it dead 3 months later. My breastfeeding journey was quite a success, at least for me. haha. I keep on pumping up until Isa 1 ...