be herself.self love.and alot of it.

ramadhan has making long way leaving us..and syawal is following it too.life went soo fast huh? i still remember how i had to forced myself to pray terawikh and recite Al- Quran. let make peace, and feel the now ;p  such us our deep love? yeah my boy! that little man take up such a massive place in my life. He is currently VERY VERY activate. one time during the *bedtimes chatting , he said "mummy, i don't want to sleep." what do you mean son? it was past 10 pm and your were still energised?what you made of? could gimme some? *(and about the bedtime story..i never read to him..i know its sound bad but i do talk to him and doing some old jokes or at least sing his fave song) handling toddler like him take a lot of patience . like if you are now having 1000kg of patience, you have to find another 10000000 kg!! its like digging moreeee and moreee good vibes in you HAHA sometimes you just have to make peace with your inner self, that toddler are definitely a GOD s...

Expecting new post from me? Nah u geddit what you asking for..wasting your 5 minutes in your life ;p Woke up with the mild headache today which is not normal. i seldom have headache in the wee hours unless after hours spending time in traffic jams or mountain workload.not early in the morning.but when its come to Thursday morning it really not a big obstacles! hahaa..because tommorow i'll be on leave..phew. So i got headache now (as i am typing thisssss) and the pain goes to my left eyes now.like  how you travel?? T_T my brain said i could take tea as a remedy. which is i KNOW will not work. i used to believe 100% on natural remedies. as i grow older, i found out : 1) Natural practise should be done regularly. meaning, you have to take it EVERYDAY BEFORE you fall sick/pain. as they wont work 100% fast and well to combat the pain/virus.its take loooonger times and effort to cure you. but the pain/virus spread faster than ever, remember. 2) Similiar to p...

Today is Monday..and i really want to know in depth, who created Saturday and Sunday as weekend. why doesn't he/she included Friday or Monday into it? or else why doesn't he created one day off in the middlle of the week,so that we could achieved work-life-balance easily..or most important part, why he/she decided to make us work 8 bloody hours per day for 5 days?that makes 20 dayys or sometimes 22 days per month? why so ridiculous lah. i am really free today, you think? actually, i just tired, mind and body and soul after many years juggling between office and home and the evil traffic jams!!!they sucked up almost 80% energy.oh btw who invented Car?i believe if she/he is still alive, he must be killing himself seeing traffic jams almost everyday.. the worst part when holiday comes *cries* im complaining sooo much today that i might go and seek peace and forgiveness from God. another 3 hours to work and another 4 and half hour to reach home -____-"

in the mid of this buzy-ness, suddenly im thinking of my shopping habit. If i could save RM400x 12 months = RM4,800 . i got yearly of 4k plus bebeh. so this is already May and suppose i shud have 2000. *check bank account..* cries a bucket. i dun have that amount in my saving account.so how does all those GURU asking us to save,save,save? when the fact that we hardly save? i only knew few people who REALLYYYY A BIG SAVER!!!few.can count by fingers! ----> look at husband. there's always SALES pop up every where.the things that we must clarify with our self.SALES are not REALLY a SALES.and it doesnt happened only once or today is the last thing (like the salesgirl ALWAYS said) really.. sometimes it is not sales. they just changing the price tag!!! so rules no 1 ; make sure it is really a SALES.meaning, you have to be aware of the price of after and before. not only by seeing the sales/discount tag/advertisement. rules no 2 : go with your wise frien...

im in a situation where obstacle came one after another.it is really depressing that i against my rules to actually talk about it.which in many situation, in  past,i did not. the day before,i was shivering hot and cold and the same time getting angry to the point of vomit blood. yesterday was the peak of everything. i become internally ill, that i think my immune system has dropped.i caught by a cold later that day.keep on sneezing, headache and feel restless. i got friends. but their name doesnt appear everytime i hold my phone, scrolling the contact list.after soo much scrolling ups and downs, finally i remember my all time advicer, A.its not that i dun remember my bff or what, but i was veryyyyy disctracted by my crisis that i could even think of anyone dearest. now i do understand why do people goes to certain degree, far form the actually self when depression coming in. so i went to call her straight away.half crying and half laughing.she must thought i was so depresse...

My new year not started very well, my son fell sick and then me..and finally i was left with very bad coughing.the real bad i'd experienced so far. you know, when u cough too muchhhhh,its hurt your head and abdomen too.plus all my throat become red and hardly ate. i cries few times. just can't endure the pain anymore. before the coughing worse, i got the mild ones.went to the pharmacy looking for something to ease.it doesnt do any help. and the cough move to worse, as predicted, doctor prescribed with antibiotic. surprisingly it doesnt help at all.my coughing still the same. after finishing all the antibiotic, i went to another doctor, which asked me to just go back to basic: 1) panadol - to ease my inflammation and red throat 2) since i have phlegm in a week after, he prescribed me with flu medicine 3) syrup 4) no hot and spicy food 5) no ice After 4 days, i feel so muchhh betterr. coughed less.

i think it is really saddened me in many ways of leaving 2015. its ReALLy one meaningful and thoughtful year for me. Wishing 2016 will bring lotsssssss of joyous that will overcome our fear and tear. and fill with brighter better in person. semoga terus dimurahkan rezeki. amin. Goooood Byeeeeee 2015. Gonna miss you!