im in a situation where obstacle came one after another.it is really depressing that i against my rules to actually talk about it.which in many situation, in past,i did not.
the day before,i was shivering hot and cold and the same time getting angry to the point of vomit blood.yesterday was the peak of everything. i become internally ill, that i think my immune system has dropped.i caught by a cold later that day.keep on sneezing, headache and feel restless.
i got friends. but their name doesnt appear everytime i hold my phone, scrolling the contact list.after soo much scrolling ups and downs, finally i remember my all time advicer, A.its not that i dun remember my bff or what, but i was veryyyyy disctracted by my crisis that i could even think of anyone dearest.
now i do understand why do people goes to certain degree, far form the actually self when depression coming in.
so i went to call her straight away.half crying and half laughing.she must thought i was so depressed that i acted so weird -____-"
i must confessed.
i am truly depressed. i dun even know what to do.i dont have objective neither reason to use my mind to produce some result.
at the back of my head ,just want to scream and lashing out, which was i really did.and trust me, it doesnt make you feel good at all.its make you feel your are below everything, stupid and utmost,bringing your headache ups and ups.
the act did not solve your problems.
after talking with A, i felt a bit light,as if i saw the light hahaha.
the best next thing your could is, pick the right person to be bff.i mean it.just drop people with negative attitude.they added the headache.
like A, she listen to me while juggling with her work.pity her but she tried her best to consult me, giving positive vibes, tone my angriness way downnn and she even mentioned she will come by if we are the same state!!
although my messiness haven't been cleared out, i feel lighter now.
so go and talk to somebody now.
the day before,i was shivering hot and cold and the same time getting angry to the point of vomit blood.yesterday was the peak of everything. i become internally ill, that i think my immune system has dropped.i caught by a cold later that day.keep on sneezing, headache and feel restless.
i got friends. but their name doesnt appear everytime i hold my phone, scrolling the contact list.after soo much scrolling ups and downs, finally i remember my all time advicer, A.its not that i dun remember my bff or what, but i was veryyyyy disctracted by my crisis that i could even think of anyone dearest.
now i do understand why do people goes to certain degree, far form the actually self when depression coming in.
so i went to call her straight away.half crying and half laughing.she must thought i was so depressed that i acted so weird -____-"
i must confessed.
i am truly depressed. i dun even know what to do.i dont have objective neither reason to use my mind to produce some result.
at the back of my head ,just want to scream and lashing out, which was i really did.and trust me, it doesnt make you feel good at all.its make you feel your are below everything, stupid and utmost,bringing your headache ups and ups.
the act did not solve your problems.
after talking with A, i felt a bit light,as if i saw the light hahaha.
the best next thing your could is, pick the right person to be bff.i mean it.just drop people with negative attitude.they added the headache.
like A, she listen to me while juggling with her work.pity her but she tried her best to consult me, giving positive vibes, tone my angriness way downnn and she even mentioned she will come by if we are the same state!!
although my messiness haven't been cleared out, i feel lighter now.
so go and talk to somebody now.
Everyone makes mistakes, and never think that we are morally above them
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