be herself.self love.and alot of it.

I just can't sleep now because after the iftar im too itchy to have a cup of coffee.there you goes,thinking of jumping here n there. My body can' t tolerate with much caffein.a sip or two is fine.but tonight almost a cup,which is becos of the socializing time.chatting n coffee goes very well. So hows life with a toddler now? Fine.perfectly fine. He ran everywhere he likes.mummy is sooo busy chasing him.the greatest part of meddling with toddler is, you could stay fit,or at least try to act ones.and by the time he falls asleep you ruin your energy too. Toddler.they have their OWN opinion.whether you like it or not,you have to deal with it.he might wanting to hold the cup by himself (which is finally will go on the floor) but u refuse to let him.they want to feed by himself,take longer time in bathroom and the list go on.this phase shall pass.i told myself. Just layan himmmm.at the end of the day,u will just regret because u were shouting n yelling at the very ...

i am in my exact 30s now.and i would like to tell myself on my 20's on what should be done. or putting in a to-do list. 1) Never take loan for study purpose. or if desperate enough,just take the fees part.and then work on your daily expenses.Life as a student is hard.Just swallow the bullet. 2) after you start working, go to holiday, impromptu.as many as you can and of course,could afford. 3) Save money even 50 permonth.i knew this sound ridicolous to safe bucks on first year of celebrating life and independent,but sooner u'll thanked my advice. 4)take life insurance/medical. this is the time when all the insurance agent will crawl up to you.plus this is the time which you'll pay lower as they calculated based on age.the more you aged the more its cost you. 5)buy cheap cars on cash.i know many of us have dream car.buy buying it on cash u could saved even more money.and you safe yourself from suffer every month because of the installment. till then ...

erkkk..i am not pregnant again.i want to but sooo many things in my mind now..so here just a thought . i want another baby and obviously, a girl to complete.but thinking of it make me feeling butterfly all over my stomach.when i went into labor room for the first time, i was scared. scared becos not knowing what will happen to me. meaning i knew the process and procedures, but i never meet them before. So hello and smile for the first time. but, thinking of going the same procedures again, frightened me lots. yes i am afraid of the things i already knew.just a flash of the needle,nurses,doctors,labor room make me cringe in the corner.make me erase my thought of having a second baby. one of my friends said there is no right or wrong time.when it happen, it happen.isn't it? so why worry in the first place?  -____- i have no ultimate motive of writing today.just my 2 cen.

Many things came up lately. my son constantly sick n require extra tlc and workload has been mountain,unfortunately i cant neglect neither nor. So less me time.less our time spend out together.everything become so rigid.i hv to go back on time to see n monitor my son n in the same time report has been well-prepared for the next morning meeting/approval. And lately i hv been driving with guilty every morning.leaving my sick son who is indeed need his mother,is totally heartbroken,frustrated and less motivated.i began to feel my so called career is no longer meaningful.whatever i do become so less thoughtful.i just want my son to be healthy and happy again. I am one sad mother.

Alhamdulillah...my baby is no longer a baby.he's turning one!!! a yearrrrr. a year has filled up with soo much patient, joyous, tears,excitement and worried plus two times trip to emergency becos of the noob parent but above all i feel grateful that my hubby and i manage to overcome everything that comes our way. a year has passed by.once a helpess baby, now a very active-cannot-sit-for-a-while toddler. To my son, Happy first birthday sayang.in life there are ups and downs.there are tears and laughter,there are also happiness and sadness. but in every stage, dont forget our Almighty creators, Allah, Ayah and mummy and your family.my Doa and thought always be with you.May you be a successful intelligent businessman as our wish and has all the strength and blessing in your life.no words could describe how much i loveeeee youuuu. Happy first birthday Ali!!!!

Happy Belated Birthday to meeeeee!!i was late in posting birthday entry, i know.but what can i do i was awayyyyyy doing this: no no no.don't rub your eyes yet. i was performing my umrah for the first time and i don't have words to describe it.everything was so mesmerizing.could consider as brithday present also.alhamdulillah. we went there altogether with Baby D.yeah sure there were bumpy but its alright as long as i have my loves one around.i am happy bunny. so, friends keep on wonder how does it feel to perform umrah while holding your 10kilos baby and his whatnot.to be honest about that,i gained muscle from that, tired and take alooootttt of patient.i mean like triple alot. if you asked me,would you bring your baby along my answer will be yes and no!! yes simply becos i wanted to included all the family members into the trip.so that i wouldnt feel mising and longing (read : clingy mother here).i wanted him to experience something different. ...

New Year doesnt come easy this time, i believe urs too rite.and the whole Malaysian. Mine..i was having a whole-hectic-and-exciting year.owhhhh i dont have to mention rite.hehe. So for the rest of the Year 2015 i would like to pray to be healthy, happy and all loved!!!!!!i want to be fit again. before take off i would like to share this anecdote.hoping we will be a more matured , better person in the future. Suatu malam seekor ular menyelit masuk ke dalam gudang kayu. Secara tak sengaja, ia menyusur di atas gergaji. Tajamnya mata gergaji itu menyebabkan perut ular terluka. Ular beranggapan gergaji itu menyerangnya. Ia pun membalasnya dengan mematuk gergaji itu berkali-kali, serangan tersebut menyebabkan luka parah di bahagian mulutnya. Marah dan sakit yang amat sangat, ular itu berusaha mengerahkan kemampuan terakhirnya untuk mengalahkan ‘musuh’ tersebut. Ia pun membelit gergaji itu sekuat tenaga. Belitan tersebut menyebabkan lukanya teramat parah dan akhirny...