be herself.self love.and alot of it.

Dalam keheningan malam ni lpas susu kan Daniyel.sejuk memalam hujan. Pantang sudah menemui silver lining nye.kalau pantang tiada had nya memang hati tak keruan memandang ke luar rumah setiap masa. Tapi mak ckp masih perlu pantang beberapa perkara.small matter mum! Jadi sebab mcm sgt happy dah abis pantang rase mcm tk tau nk type topik ape.hehe.ok la ape kata kite share tips pantang ok? 1- dalam pantang selalu jiwa kacau.mana kan suami jauh. Kalau dekat alhamdulillah.tapi memlm kesian nak kejut sebab esok nye dorg kene keje.kesian ngantok.mana kan nak bf anak,mana nak jaga luka.dgn tk ckup tido.mana satu nk utama.well u hv to act sellfish.please utamakan diri dlu.kalau xde orang tolong,cari jgk smpai ade.kalau trpakse kejut suami,kejut je.ni semua utk pastikan luka cepat baik.tak terbukak.kalau ape2 jadi dekat luka kan lg susah. Anak takpe.minum susu,berak,mandi, tido.hehe 2- breastfeed Siapa lah aku nk pongpangping pasal bf.aku sedar.tapi aku tgok kadang ibu2 bf ni bkn mcm nak bf...

Hampir semua org bertanya ape perasaan saya sekarang bile bergelar new mom. Rs sangat gembira sebenarnye dengan kelahiran D. He is an amazing baby.syukur sangat.senyuman,tangisan,jeritan,renungan anak membuatkan saya rasa hidup sangat bercahaya. D is my bintang hati. F adalah si matahari.wah kelassss kau bermetafora dalam pantang ni. Harini hari ke 34 berpantang. Daniyel mcm biase selalu berjga tepat pada waktunye untuk menyusu.what an intelligent baby.memang punctual tak pernah lewat.bagus dr kecik dah belajar menepati masa. Baby D suke senyum.wah mencair ok mak die memang tak jadi marah.senyuman die mcm ade satu punye kuasa ajaib yang memancar2. Mcm batu kripton tapi batu tu melemahkan superman.batu yang satu ni menambah kn tenaga.hehe. Sekarang berat Daniyel ialah 4.8 kg.amazing lagi anak aku tu.cepat btol membesar.dulu dalam perut hanyala sekecil mempelam (x igt buah ape sebenarnye).sekarang nak dukung pun lenguh. Baby D suke kalau orang bersembang dgn die. Die akan renung wa...

I felt guilty to Daniyel lately becos I failed to breastfeed him since day 2. He was crying all the day and I keep wondering why. After seeing the doctor only I knew I did not produce enough milk.seeing baby hungry n exhausted from crying added the guilty n pain. Becos I am mom,I decided to feed him with formula milk.if it would make him happy then why not?? Few days later,i keep on trying to pump n pump my breast.people around me added the presure and hurting my feeling.thats not only annoyed,but its hurt and mounting the guilt feeling again. My nipple sore,crack n has blister.i cried whenever I feed Daniyel.on early day of confinement, I couldnt sit properly and its truly hurt becos of my episotomy.thats another down factor. Up until today,people keep on asking me why-not-breastfeeding-annoying question.trust me as a mother I always wanted the best for my baby.and as human I also flawed and has a body to heal too. So everytime u passed by a mother,ecspecially the new mom,never ...

Im not in the mood today.my episotomy not yet recover.i just realized my stretch mark are sooo ugly.my belly have yet to flaten.my husband is not around to comfort me.the stress n negativity are everywhere.i feel like crying.i need my comfort food..hell no I am in confinement now * cries So this weekend I wanna go shopping.i dun care. Bye.

Wah sedar tak sedar Daniyel reached 3 weeks today.wehuuuu *throw confetti Daniyel is a great boyyyy.such a bless. Mummyyy is such a cranky unbehave mum,in another note. Mom skip breakkie bcos of the sleepiness,forgot to tie up hair, lessen the jamu dosage n throw tantrum to f in every single thing that doesnt fall in places. Maybe we could call it baby blue? And yesterday somebody told me that nurses in hospital will feed ur baby with formula milk once the baby was born.no wonder the babies in nursery remain silent n sleep all night. I felt betray.all this while during my check up and by seeing the hspital wall,breasfeed is widely promoted. Like non other thing allowed.Some new mum like me dun even think bout formula milk n make it look like a SIN. I am angry in disbelief.could anyone clarify?please. So that I could sleep better.

Introducing the first edition of the hussin-roslan clan.. Mohd Daniyel Ali After battling my life for 5 hrs of labor pain,my bundle of joy finally arrived.woottt wooot my son. U r totally a heartbreaker. Mummy in ipoh now crying everynight missing ur dad.pls weekend come faster *cries again*

Sitting n leisuring at home is such a bless from almighty God.i could lazing around, check my inbox,clean up the mess,making breakfest for darling f and well sleep for a while without worrying my boss will ring me in the middle. But Being in this waiting game (as the blog always said) is sometimes a bit tough or errr verryyy toughhh.ecspecially when I think I should hv follow my to do list but then again looking at my growing belly,make me cut almost 80% of what have been listed.up until now,i read n recall thousand of tips for easy and (not so) quick delivery.i felt desperate now -___- Update on my week 39 and 2 days: - Current weight is 72kilo *cries - Baby estimation is 3.2 kilos - I lost appetite abit - could feel the baby's is turning down. Rase geli kat bawah - exhausted And I couldnt sleep properly!!! almost cried in the middle of the night becos of my lower back was soooo throbbing pain.i need my rest but nothing I could do except putting more pillows around me.th...