be herself.self love.and alot of it.

heloooooo..im turning 32 today..i have been living for 32 years??? Alhamdulillah for everything i've had today..and i am praying to Allah to grant me a good health especially for my second pregnancy, healthy and happy babies,provide me with all the strength to go through this,  expanding my rezeki and to be with my whole family in Jannah.

my last update was September? its like 3 months ago??? thats looonggg.. so hi here i am with my 18 weeks of pregnancy.typing with my bloating ad gassy stomach. this second round is quite challenging for me. 1st i reallly have bad nausea and gassy stomach.i feel like wanna sleep whole morning and do nothing. but do nothing added the pain.so i think one of the most crucial part of handling the morning sickness is stand up straight and dont think about it. get ready,all dolled up and go and have your day. do your chores,work or activities.it will definitely doesnt shove it away, but it divert your thinking and focusing on something else. Yes you might felt down on your knee once a while,im not judging. whenever i heard pregnant friends really have to be in bed all day due to morning sickness, and on Medical leave,i feel like..oh thats cool. dont have to work.sorryyyy i really don't know sitting on the bed whole time doesn't eased the pain.Now i know. so the next hardes...

i have weeks by week full with migraines. it just soo damn repeated that i couldn't stand any more. so,did some research and reading again and again and must decide something to fixed myself(to be exact my head). trying to pantang with few types of food, but men it doesn't work at ALL T_T you migrainer know right. my type of migraine is constant and mild..only sometimes hiked up ( when the workload going up and never stop.at some point, i THINK i should quit my job HAHAHA) so i'll remember my best friend from Shaklee, Multivitamin Vita-Lea. i took this way back then when i was pregnant as i had low blood reading. its just worked amazing!!but couldn't remember if it had helped much with my headache during my gestation.hence i ordering it right away and trying it.now it has been almost 5 days. i noticed: 1) i have some few pain on the top of my head.but very little compared to previous week. 2) i can drink coffee,i mean half...

ramadhan has making long way leaving us..and syawal is following it too.life went soo fast huh? i still remember how i had to forced myself to pray terawikh and recite Al- Quran. let make peace, and feel the now ;p  such us our deep love? yeah my boy! that little man take up such a massive place in my life. He is currently VERY VERY activate. one time during the *bedtimes chatting , he said "mummy, i don't want to sleep." what do you mean son? it was past 10 pm and your were still energised?what you made of? could gimme some? *(and about the bedtime story..i never read to him..i know its sound bad but i do talk to him and doing some old jokes or at least sing his fave song) handling toddler like him take a lot of patience . like if you are now having 1000kg of patience, you have to find another 10000000 kg!! its like digging moreeee and moreee good vibes in you HAHA sometimes you just have to make peace with your inner self, that toddler are definitely a GOD s...

Expecting new post from me? Nah u geddit what you asking for..wasting your 5 minutes in your life ;p Woke up with the mild headache today which is not normal. i seldom have headache in the wee hours unless after hours spending time in traffic jams or mountain workload.not early in the morning.but when its come to Thursday morning it really not a big obstacles! hahaa..because tommorow i'll be on leave..phew. So i got headache now (as i am typing thisssss) and the pain goes to my left eyes now.like  how you travel?? T_T my brain said i could take tea as a remedy. which is i KNOW will not work. i used to believe 100% on natural remedies. as i grow older, i found out : 1) Natural practise should be done regularly. meaning, you have to take it EVERYDAY BEFORE you fall sick/pain. as they wont work 100% fast and well to combat the pain/virus.its take loooonger times and effort to cure you. but the pain/virus spread faster than ever, remember. 2) Similiar to p...

Today is Monday..and i really want to know in depth, who created Saturday and Sunday as weekend. why doesn't he/she included Friday or Monday into it? or else why doesn't he created one day off in the middlle of the week,so that we could achieved work-life-balance easily..or most important part, why he/she decided to make us work 8 bloody hours per day for 5 days?that makes 20 dayys or sometimes 22 days per month? why so ridiculous lah. i am really free today, you think? actually, i just tired, mind and body and soul after many years juggling between office and home and the evil traffic jams!!!they sucked up almost 80% energy.oh btw who invented Car?i believe if she/he is still alive, he must be killing himself seeing traffic jams almost everyday.. the worst part when holiday comes *cries* im complaining sooo much today that i might go and seek peace and forgiveness from God. another 3 hours to work and another 4 and half hour to reach home -____-"

in the mid of this buzy-ness, suddenly im thinking of my shopping habit. If i could save RM400x 12 months = RM4,800 . i got yearly of 4k plus bebeh. so this is already May and suppose i shud have 2000. *check bank account..* cries a bucket. i dun have that amount in my saving account.so how does all those GURU asking us to save,save,save? when the fact that we hardly save? i only knew few people who REALLYYYY A BIG SAVER!!!few.can count by fingers! ----> look at husband. there's always SALES pop up every where.the things that we must clarify with our self.SALES are not REALLY a SALES.and it doesnt happened only once or today is the last thing (like the salesgirl ALWAYS said) really.. sometimes it is not sales. they just changing the price tag!!! so rules no 1 ; make sure it is really a SALES.meaning, you have to be aware of the price of after and before. not only by seeing the sales/discount tag/advertisement. rules no 2 : go with your wise frien...