be herself.self love.and alot of it.

I felt guilty to Daniyel lately becos I failed to breastfeed him since day 2. He was crying all the day and I keep wondering why. After seeing the doctor only I knew I did not produce enough milk.seeing baby hungry n exhausted from crying added the guilty n pain. Becos I am mom,I decided to feed him with formula milk.if it would make him happy then why not?? Few days later,i keep on trying to pump n pump my breast.people around me added the presure and hurting my feeling.thats not only annoyed,but its hurt and mounting the guilt feeling again. My nipple sore,crack n has blister.i cried whenever I feed Daniyel.on early day of confinement, I couldnt sit properly and its truly hurt becos of my episotomy.thats another down factor. Up until today,people keep on asking me why-not-breastfeeding-annoying question.trust me as a mother I always wanted the best for my baby.and as human I also flawed and has a body to heal too. So everytime u passed by a mother,ecspecially the new mom,never ...

Im not in the mood today.my episotomy not yet recover.i just realized my stretch mark are sooo ugly.my belly have yet to flaten.my husband is not around to comfort me.the stress n negativity are everywhere.i feel like crying.i need my comfort food..hell no I am in confinement now * cries So this weekend I wanna go shopping.i dun care. Bye.

Wah sedar tak sedar Daniyel reached 3 weeks today.wehuuuu *throw confetti Daniyel is a great boyyyy.such a bless. Mummyyy is such a cranky unbehave mum,in another note. Mom skip breakkie bcos of the sleepiness,forgot to tie up hair, lessen the jamu dosage n throw tantrum to f in every single thing that doesnt fall in places. Maybe we could call it baby blue? And yesterday somebody told me that nurses in hospital will feed ur baby with formula milk once the baby was born.no wonder the babies in nursery remain silent n sleep all night. I felt betray.all this while during my check up and by seeing the hspital wall,breasfeed is widely promoted. Like non other thing allowed.Some new mum like me dun even think bout formula milk n make it look like a SIN. I am angry in disbelief.could anyone clarify?please. So that I could sleep better.

Introducing the first edition of the hussin-roslan clan.. Mohd Daniyel Ali After battling my life for 5 hrs of labor pain,my bundle of joy finally arrived.woottt wooot my son. U r totally a heartbreaker. Mummy in ipoh now crying everynight missing ur dad.pls weekend come faster *cries again*

Sitting n leisuring at home is such a bless from almighty God.i could lazing around, check my inbox,clean up the mess,making breakfest for darling f and well sleep for a while without worrying my boss will ring me in the middle. But Being in this waiting game (as the blog always said) is sometimes a bit tough or errr verryyy toughhh.ecspecially when I think I should hv follow my to do list but then again looking at my growing belly,make me cut almost 80% of what have been listed.up until now,i read n recall thousand of tips for easy and (not so) quick delivery.i felt desperate now -___- Update on my week 39 and 2 days: - Current weight is 72kilo *cries - Baby estimation is 3.2 kilos - I lost appetite abit - could feel the baby's is turning down. Rase geli kat bawah - exhausted And I couldnt sleep properly!!! almost cried in the middle of the night becos of my lower back was soooo throbbing pain.i need my rest but nothing I could do except putting more pillows around me.th...

Hubby is busy being master chef in the kitchen.so why not wifey doing some blog update with puffier feet than ever. Alhamdulillah,i started this pregnancy journey with only slight difficuilty.as I told ya, I knew I am expecting during my week 5,just a week before ramadhan.its such a bless.but being a newbie and fasting werent a great combo. I felt tired almost all the time.only perfomed terawikh 2-3 days.other than that, I lay flat on bed after berbuke. I always prayed and asked Allah to grant me all the strenght in the world to go through the whole 8 month left,with some crying in between. Alhmdulillah, I complete my first phase of trimester and feel a lot better. And now I am,battling in my week 38 with heavier me and every moves are so wrong and painful.but I feel happier than nobody bussiness when little bulb are kicking and summersaulting.hehee.i can't wait to see u babyyyyy..i just have to bear around 2 weeks =D Mum and mil keep on advicing me on what to do.i feel bless...

What would u do if have less than 20 days before the D-Day? asking me, may i have my sound sleep and better weather please? the weather couldnt be any forgiven nowadays. you be in the wrong please with the material of clothes, u'll screw up everything. on the different note, baby is now ready for delivery. the things that be lil bit nervous is how the baby will come out becos currently baby's weight approximately 3.1 kilos!!of cos i pray for normal smooth delivery.tho sometime the tearing and sewing part do scare me. last time i cry becos i can't imagine myself go through the maximum pain. Just sharing,have u heard of this?  however this is not true. read more about it  here oh btw, how bout my weight? i am currently 69 kg..blurghhhh..coming out faster baby, mummy wanna start dieting sooooon.